Well, it seems it is now time to go ahead and fill you all in.....we are moving yet once again.................................................................................................................yes..........that M word has become the most dreaded word in our household. Monterey was supposed to be a step up from Arizona and it seems as though nothing is working out for us...I won't get into crazy details and bore you to death but,,,,,,,EVERYTHING from the moment we found out we were moving here and the accident we had all the way to right this moment...the job, the schools, my business, grocery shopping, finances.......the list goes on and on and on........it wasn't supposed to be like this, but you can't stay somewhere if you can't pay your bills.When people or jobs aren't able to come through as arranged, how does a family survive?...I am heartbroken, for my family, my kids especially. I have always been the 'stable' one that EVERYBODY looks up to and relies on,and at this very moment, I am grasping to hold onto anything that remotely seems stable...the routine, I guess is the only thing thats stable, wake up, do breakfast, get kids to school, try to work and homeschool whoever is off school that day, pick up other kids, dinner, bed, do it again....at least I am able to give my kids that much..at least they have me here , right?! I spend most my days crying, as this has been mine and the Mr.'s worst nightmare, moving here.....like I said I won't bore you with details but how can EVERYTHING in your life at one moment seem to be the biggest mistake you ever made? And none of it really seems to even be to our own fault...thats a hard one....
Ok Ok what does this mean for Night Owl..well it means that until we find a place to live I don't know how much sewing I will get done or be able to even do....as of this very moment we have to be out by the 17th of December and have nowhere to live...We have a place to go but nowhere to LIVE! How does this happen? How do you go from owning investment property and driving nice vehicles, and owning a business, to your family of SEVEN moving in with your parents???????? Hello, somebody wake me up please..............................I know we will find a place, but the thought of having to move all of us in 2 weeks to my moms,and putting everything we own into storage just sickens me.....It has REALLY been pissing me off lately to see everyone decorating for Christmas and setting up Christmas trees....I feel like a big baby not being able to do the same for my family....was that brutally honest..it's pissing me off? I sound like a whiny baby when I read it or say it...but after all, I'm the "mom who does it all"...I'm the mom that organizes the school parties, that takes the kids to see lights, that decorates and bakes endlessly, that still runs my business, etc etc etc................................right now I'm packing to move somewhere that I DONT want to be and I can barely afford to buy food to feed us much less a Christmas tree or Christmas presents.....Yah I'm a little pissed!!! I made the decision to go back to Riverside instead of Arizona though as that is where our family is.....thats where my boys' dad is, that's where our support is..my friends, the kids old school they love so much.....Disneyland...........hahaha...the silver lining is in there somewhere......anyways...just pray for us...we dont know where were going we dont know what tomorrow holds..all we know is that we have each other...I know my kids will be fine..I know we will do our best to have somewhat an ok Christmas for them....we will make it work..we always do....times are hard, money is extremely short, emotions are on edge, I have been through worse...believe it or not..LOL..I really have..all I know is that I do bounce back. My kids do end up ok....in the long run, not sure but for now, they are ok......
We made one trip down to southern california this weekend with one moving truck already with half our stuff. I want the kids to finish out school here and then we will move the next day with the remainder. The Mr. will do his best to find a job there, and we will continue our search for a house so we can move into our own space and not my parents by the time we have to go. (Rubbing my face out of anxiety while I type)........big breath...........ok, anyhow, so at this point youre asking...Trisha what can I do????? Pray! Cross fingers and toes! Whatever it is you do..thats what we need....I want to be settled by January 9 when the kids are set to go back to school so that I know where they will be going the remainder of the school year...I want to be able to not have to pay more than one entire month on a storage bill...not too much to ask, right?! THEN.......when that's all said and done, please please please support me..as of Dec. 17 Night Owl is all we'll have to make ends meet....I dont know where I'll be able to set up , but when I find a place the best thing YOU can do is support me and spread the word....for those have ordered I usually throw in two business cards..or if you have ordered from me and have a small collection of cards, share them with your friends, with other people while youre out and someone comments on your daughters clothes....etc etc..thats what I need right now.is to know that you support me and will stick by me and refer me..if you know of a local boutique in your area that sells handmade please put me in contact with them..take your daughters clothes in to them and share with them, tell them that you would love to see me in their shop....anyway, any how that you know of to keep this business alive...is what I ask............
I am again humbled by the outpouring and outreach of my friends, family and this small community even up here where I live now to help us in any way they can....people are so wonderful when it comes down to it...Anyhow, sorry for all this rambling...I didn't cry once while writing it...maybe I'm just accepting and ready to move on to the next phase..I will be sewing up a storm until I have to pack the machines away.....I look forward to moving on and starting over and looking back one day at this time in my life and laughing............I will laugh, right?! Thank you again for all your love......